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Ok I`m Bored Bored Bored Bored!!
However...I dun want 2 get a job...I dun want 2 go out and have fun...
I dun know wat I want??Perhaps a life away from cities will be better??
I`ve got no one 2 talk to except my baby bro who awaits me 2 feed him and carry him...
and my computer games with my blog 2 express my feelings???ARGH!!
If u guys r constant readers...u probably will notice me posting everyday...
Sometimes even up 2 two posts or more per day...thats de reason!!
Some may say "No Freedom = No Life" but 4 me..."No Sch = No life"
Opps...that sounds kinda rare...but thats my point of view!!
In sch...lots of "activities","news" and "suprises" that will happened...
But now...going out or staying at home is de same...usual routine...expected things!!
Mayb u will say get a job will be best 4 me...
However...aft seeing so many ppl post about de difficulties and F**K up things...
I guess it better without one...
And those who dun know me well...I love unexpected...I love surprises!!

Ohya...and there is a "friend" of my who stays awake at 3am...
and best of all...he/she lyks my name alot...why??
cox he/she use my name and tag at other ppl blog 2 express his/her
tinking of wat he/her tinks I`m tinking...r u stupid or wat??
Dun try 2 be a smart alex and tink u r a saints trying 2 help me??
U onli see de surface of wat is happening and u pretend that u know everything...
Wahahax...all I can do is 2 laugh at ur ignorance...
So wat if I feelings 4 her...BIG F**K??Must u do such a thing??
All I can say is that u r unfortunate cox I`m feeling frustrated now...
I`m scolding u all I want in order 2 vent out my feelings...
Why wun u put ur own name??Dare 2 do dare not 2 admit??
Tell u something...I dun appreciate it at all...wateva of ur intention...
I dun give a damn...opps...I shldnt have sae d**n...but I`m F**K UP!!
U so free??Y dun u go back evss and help clean de toilets using a toothbrush...
Ok shall stop here...I do have some mercy in me...just dun repeat de same mistake again...
I tink I shld stop studying and find a job which bring excitement into me??
Lyk a stunt-man??Mountain climber??Diver??but not illegal jobs though...
Talk 2 me guys if u r free...b4 I go insane sooner or later...=x

2dae was a fun dae!!
Long time nv had a family outing le...
Went 2 escape with my family and had a great time 2gether...
I believe our relationship will be even stronger day aft day...
Hahax...treasure ur family man!!cox no matter wat...blood is thicker than water de!!
Shall stop here...and I miz my frens,I miz sch,I miz evss!!oops...nv expect myself 2 sae that...
Dizzy dizzy now...bye bye!!

Life is a learning journey...
there will surely be UPs and DOWNs in our life...
It is all up 2 us on how we see each and individual experience...
I`m getting more and more tired and restless by all tis learning...
Yes...I do get 2 learn alot through all tis that had happened in my life...
But I`m starting 2 lose de will and fighting spirit in me 2 continue on...
Day by day...my goals and targets that push me on had disappear...
Wat is there left 4 me now??...I do not know...but I`m not giving up...
I`m just continuing 2 push myself on...hoping more and more miracles will happened...
More and more goals and targets will appeared 2 increase my will capacity...
And also believing that all things that happened is in God`s purpose...
It may seems something negative...but it may be a blessing in disguise...
Keeping my mind firm is wat I`m praying...focusing on de positive instead of negative...
All that is left is to be patient and wait 4 God plan 2 be reveal...=)


Lots of incidents had happen 2 sovereign...
It may seems too sudden but I believe its inavoidable...
There is nth much 4 me 2 sae but just that its 4 de club interest...
Its de board decision and I clearly respect it...
Let bygone be bygone...lets not be bother by de past...
We can only move 4ward and work hand in hand with one another...


Hmm...I guess u guys probably hear ppl saying
dun bcox of a flower then give up de whole forest...its so stupid!!
Hmm...quite true...but I dun agree with it at all...
I have my own point of view when come to such situation
Hey tink!!wats de point of having a whole forest when u lose the precious little flower which u love and want
Its no use of giving me everything when I onli want HER onli...
SHE is de onli one which matter 2 me...its lyk feeding a vegetarian
with chicken,fish,beef and etc...
hahax...it may sound kinda silly...but thats wat I feel...


Believe me anot...but I believe there is always a exception...
I hate ppl of judging a person using "majority"...
an example will be lyk "all guys r untrustable" or "all guys r heartless"
its lyk hello?!?dun use that 2 infer on me!!
others mayb...but plz dun use it on me...
If everybody is de same...then human r lyk robot...
all r same...being produce with de same format...
and I believe in myself that I`m different...I`m unique...I`m special...
Just lyk my name...totally different from others...
Plz dun see me lyk others...open up ur EYES and spot de difference...
A extremely perfect person I`m not...but a excellent person I`m...
rmb...people mayb lyk that...but that does not apply on me...


Chalet from fridae to sundae...
First time I realise that being de organizer of a chalet is totally not easy...
All de while,whenever I go 4 a chalet I will complain tis complain that...
and in de end just have fun myself...=x
Tis time its my turn 2 feel how a organizer will feel...
Well prepare activities and food...yet complain and grumbling is all we heard...


dumb as it I may look...but deep down in me I`m not...
underestimate me all u want...my smile had fool u guys...
I may seems quiet and introvert around...not wanting 2 bother...
but behind I`m watching around acting as if nth had happend...
I`m sorrie 2 sae that u had pick with de wrong guy 2 play with...
cox its not me u r playing with but its my Lord God Jesus u r dealing with...


Argh!!My head is in pain...
Crosses during trng lead 2 using de wrong part of my head 2 head...
My head is in pain...no swell...fortunately??I`m not sure...
But wat I know is that it realli hurts alot!!
Tis shall be my last post till Sunday??
Having chalet @ costa sand resort(pasir ris) from 2morrow till sundae...
Gonna have fun I hope...intending not 2 slp...relaxation is wat I want...


Old injuries keep on healing and resurfacing...
No matter how gd u r...it can be a huge burden and pain 4 us...
Praying hard daily 4 it 2 heal as I do not want it 2 stop my footballing career...
Huge prospects I am and I believe I can go far if I keep myself humble and eager 2 learn...
Focusing on football is my main goal...all things aside 4 now...
With God nth is impossible is still my stand...I believe in unseen...
and I trust in God that Sovereign and my life will reach great height...


Sleepless nite with deep thinking has let me come 2 a conclusion...
Life has 2 go on...and most importantly...I have a choice in everything...
Whether 2 choose to be happie or sad...to continue or quit...its all up 2 me...
I have also realise that all that is happening is a learning experience 4 me...
Instead of asking God y such things happen on me??...I shld have have ask something instead...
God wat do u want me 2 learn from it??...
hahax...And trust me or shld I sae trust de Bible...
God do not test us beyond our limit...So if such things will 2 happened...
God knows that I`m able 2 control and overcome it...and I`m glad 2 say I did...
Although its kind of hurting...and I was lyk WTH...such a joke in my life lyk that...
But I`m still glad that he send true frens 2 come encourage and help me along de ways...
I do not deny that I`m kinda angry,disappointed,jealous when I heard about de things u told me...
Especially when there is someonelse...However...in tis kind of things...
there is no right or wrong...so I realli can`t sae much...
I have decided 2 commit and let God lead me in everythings...
I can`t promise anything at all now...but I will just let nature occurs on it own...
If its God will 4 us 2 be 2gether then so be it...if its not then so be it too...
I will not force myself 2 4get u or purposely go and look 4 another gurl or wateva...
I`m leaving everything in God`s hand now...
cox he let me realise that I can`t do things de way I want at all...
I have 2 commit everything 2 him...=)
All that I ever ask from U is 2 commit and let God decide 4 u who is de right person 4 u...
and do not let others influence ur decision and lastly...
Plz do not be 2 rash in ur decision...thats all I wants...=)


day after day time pass away
and i just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows i hide it inside i keep on searching but i can't find
the courage is to show to letting you know i've never felt so much love before
and once again i'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be
holding you close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me
oh yeah how will i know if i let you go
night after night i hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame
we're worlds apart i'm to shy to ask i'm to proud to lose but sooner or later i've gotta choose
and once again i'm thinkin' about taking the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me
will i ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah how will i know
if i let you go if i let you go oh baby oooh once again
i'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me
close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah
how will i know if i let you go but if i let you go i will never know oh baby
will i ever seeyou smiling back at me oh yeah how will i know
how will i know
if i let you go


Hmm...So all tis while it has always been me myself...
Haha...but its ok...instead of feeling sad...I`m somehow feeling "lighten"
As in finally I`m letting something which I had always hold on too 4 4yrs??
phew...hahax...of course I`m abit sad...Hello?!?!I`m still human rite??
But I`m not that sad 2 de extent of crying 4 nites and days...
So time 2 move on perhaps??and love cannot be force...
I dun blame u at all and I hope 2 wish u all de best in ur life...=)
and most important get urself a better guy then me ok!!..
oresle I will be lyk ##@@^#$!$...hahax...
Ohya and must be a christian too wow!!...
And plz pray hard 4 me 2 get a better gurl then u wow!!...
So I hereby declare myself single again...hahax...I always was wat!!dots...
smile always Manton!!

@3U2$i_+@$
I`m a stupid boi boi...It takes me so long 2 realise it...
Everytime I keep on pushing de blame around...to u,to others,to de surrounding...
But I nv blame myself...I keep on saeing that u r de one who do not want 2 be with me...
However,I nv ask u of ur opinion...I nv ask wat`s de problem u r facing with...
I onli care about myself,how I feel,how I want it 2 be,but I nv care about how u feel...
I din not care if u r sad,disappointed,angry,or down...I keep on pressing u 2 be with me
just 4 my own sake...I believe u love me and I love u too...however...I din show any concern to u at all...
I din realise at all that u r a girl...and I`m a boy...I shld have been de one who have gave u de sense of security,
go through thick and thins with u,care and concern about u and most importantly make de initial move...
I believe there have been lots of hurts and doubts in ur mind...
I`m realli realli sorrie that I had nv been there 4 u...I nv show any concern 4 u at all...
All that I ever did was 2 avoid u,pretend not 2 see u and hurt u...
I`m realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli sorrie...
I was crazy to had nv see ur love and care 4 me...I onli care about myself...
Whether we can be 2gether anot...is another question...
But no matter wat ur decision is...I must sincerely apologize 2 u...
However,I still realli hope 2 be with u...But I will leave de decision 2 u...
As I din take my chance in de past...
All I just want 2 sae is that 4 de past 4 years...My love 4 u is from de bottom of my heart...
I LOVE U...

Fitter and Fitter daily I become...
De after effect of trng is slowing disappearing...De pain I once often fear is slowly gone...
90mins r turning easy 4 me...i`m slowly running more often than usual...its a gd sign...
Yesterdae game totally sucks...was disappointed but I still can take it on my chin...
5-2 de final score line...its disappointing but another addititon 2 my experience list...
Improvement is always wat I aim every single match...and I`m happie I din disappoint myself...


Ytrdae...surprise 2 be still in contact with my ex classmate yaoting...
din expect her 2 manage 2 find my contacts...had a gd and happie chat with her...
especially when I`m bullying her...wahahax...sorrie dumbdumb yaoting...
who ask u call me irritating pest manton when u r more irritating...wahahax...


Yawnz...ok ytrdae was prom nite and frankly speaking...
I din not wanted 2 go...I also dun know y...but it just seems uninteresting and pointless...
Actually wanted 2 meet louis,del,nel at city hall...but in de end...we ended up in de same train...
So...it save us de waiting time...reach there quite early around 6.35pm...
But 2 our surprise...there were many already there...decided 2 went in and sit...
and frankly...we choose de wrong table lah...it was de last one far right 2 de end...
ended up sitting with pei ying,chevalyn,sock ping,yi xin and lu huan...
then del and nel change 2 jon`s table...but me and louis were ps 2 leave de gurls alone...
So we waited some time b4 changing...
Frankly speaking...if I know wat kind of event was presented 2 us...
I will not have even bother 2 turn up...WHY?!?
firstly,de food suck!!...secondly...I dun have de mood...and lastly...there were so many
and I realli mean many incidents which makes my blood boil!!...
But I cum liao...so bo bian...just sit there loh...let de time pass...and most importantly...
try 2 be adrift from others...=x
then there were many awards and lucky draw given out...some part were funny...
but I just can`t laugh it out...also dun know y...
then it was blah blah blah blah and so on...
ppl then decided 2 ignored de host and started moving around taking photos...
I was lyk feeling WTF...and hoping ppl will not approach me 2 take photos(seriously)...
so I just pretend pretend...sit there...dun move about...was talking 2 rizwan...
trying not 2 attract any ppl...but still...ppl come asking me 2 take photo...
so no choice loh...everything was meaningless and unfascinating until about de end??
I will nv imagine that 2 happened(mayb onli in my dream) and seriously I was stunned,
shock,surprise,u name it all...
we were walking back 2 our table and we bypass HER walking in de opp direction...
de moment I saw her from afar...I was already not myself...dun know how 2 react...
so I just walk loh...thought SHE will also pretend nv see me(lyk wat we always do in sch lah)...
So I just look 2wards my left and hope SHE looks 2wards HER right(not I wan de,but its de way we avoid each other)...and surprising...instead of that happening...
SHE make de move 2 ask whether want 2 take photo with HER anot?!?!
Frankly speaking...at that moment...I was touch and sad at de moment...WHY?!?!
I din expect that 2 happened...I also thought SHE will nv make de first move...
sad bcox I feel quite useless loh...lyk WTF MANTON!!...u r de guy not HER!!...
u tis boi shld feel realli grateful that such a thing happened 2 u...
seriously...at that moment...My tears nearly flow out(heng ah)...
I believe it was one of de best moment in my life...how I wish time will have pause at that moment...
But still I`m happie too have at least that moment...better than none...
and it will always be in my memories...praying hard that it wun be my last...
aft that was dance all de way...was sian 2 be fact!!...
I dun lyk such things at all...so I just sit down loh...with sp,jess they all...
Ohya...thankfully...jess`s de papa fetch me home on de way too...and I realli save alot on taxi fare...thks alot Jess!!

Hmm...every single dae,we have a choice 2 choose whether 2 be sad or happy...
However,certain daes,our mood r being affected by wat we see,feel,hear or even smell...
As a result,de whole dae is being spoilt...worse of all is when its been cause by de 1 u love...
But wat we can do is 2 tell ourselves we have a choice 2 choose wat kind of dae we want...
Although de hurt and pain will still be there...there will always be a way 2 overcome it...


I did wat I shld do...and frankly speaking...I`m disappointed...It had always been hard 4 me 2 pick up my courage due 2 de fear of rejection...I may seems 2 be ok...but deep down inside me...the hurt and fear has just gone deeper...I dun know y but I just feel there is always something or some reasons that is stopping us...I dun know whether I realli understand or accept de reasons u give...but I just feel they r excuses from u 2 get away from me...everytime when my hopes r high...it always ended up back 2 zero again...the urge within my heart r slowly disappearing...and all that r left r broken pieces of my heart with my fallen tears on it...all that I ever wanted was...you

Siao Liao Lah Siao Liao Lah...
Tis 2 daes will most probably be de toughest dae of my time...
Lots of words r hitting me rite through my heart...all of them supporting de same stand...
I dun know much and I hope not 2 care much...however...de urge pulling me is just 2 great...
I just have a feeling that if I dun move within tis 2 daes...it will be GAME OVER...
The Game will then be defeated...NONONONONO!!!
I dun lyk it but I just can`t seems 2 stop it from happening...
Motivation from my frens r pushing me till de end of de race...
However it still up 2 me 2 decided my future...so wat will it be??...
I realli dun know now...

Tired is de onli word 2 describe me...
Training has been superb tough tis wk as we r trying 2 gain back our fitness...
However a gd sign is that our team is growing rapidly...from 5-6 in de past...
till de current crop of 25 members in our team...best of all is that our players r just brillant...
Not onli our 1st team is strong...but our second team is strong too...
Best of all is that our standard of de 1st team is just too strong and hot 4 others 2 handle...
Watch us Sovereign FC...Our team is just starting 2 heat up as one of de best in town...


Finally football season 2 kick off...
2dae trng was veri shiok...cox its realli tough man!!
4 de first time...we train till tis standard...furthermore its been a long time since I play
So its was quite a tough thing 2 regain my form...with de field being in a bad condition
adding 2 my difficulties...

Unfortunately...Vicky did a mis-tackle on me unintentionly...
coxing me 2 injure my ankle with bruises and swell...however as usual...
I`m Manton Chan...and I wun give up so easily...a small setback will onli make me return
stronger and better...

prom nite will be tis fridae...so it will be de last time we see each other ppl!!


hmm...O lvl is finally over...
I always thought I will feel happy
BUT somehow I dun...ya...I maybe showing my craziness aft O lvl
However...I dun realli know why either...I`m starting 2 miz sch...
My frens...de teachers...the sch...etc etc...I dun know y either...
Mayb bcox its lyk another part of my life coming 2 end...
However...there r some unfinish business left...
I dun want 2 just leave it there and wash my hands...
Its so inresponsible...I feel I have 2 at least have an ans...
In order not 2 have another regret added into my life...


yesterdae went mrs lynette chua condo 2 have bbq...
it was organize 4 408 and 409...the response was so great
no. of ppl register was about 60ppl in total...mostly from 409...
however less than half turn up??yup...about there...
we all can tell mrs chua was feeling abit disappointed...
worst of all...there were 4 table there and we all felt racism in practice...
1 table contain me,delvyn,louis.jonathan,augustine,nelson,peiying,serene and joanne
while the 3 table were fill up by malays...we actually thought that we could have join tables
chit chat together...talk about the activites that happen during our time together...
however they just seem so unfriendly...so we just stick 2 our own grp...
play "big 2" at the beginning...then they begin 2 play 21 dian...with money involve
so of course I`m not involve...watch them play...then it was time 2 eat...all of us din eat much
especially me and louis...we began 2 talk cock...and then we came 2 one topic on nelson`s
"favourite" fren=>monkey...we share with them y we did not continue 2 befrens...
all de things that make us du lan and all de things we dun lyk about him...
at first joanne and serene was still feeling abit pity 4 him...
however aft hearing all those things...they all began 2 feel so agitated...hahax...esp joanne...
then we manage 2 link till de incidentt where serene spit milo on louis face during sec 3...
Next we decided 2 post at de playground and take photos...had lot of funs there
aft that went 2 play at the baby pool...enjoy ourselves alot...then me nelson zul and john<> decide 2 swim awhile...went down into de pool with my jeans...then less than 10 mins we came back up
nelson was constantly sneezing...then we went into the suana??...had a great laugh there
zul went into the suana and he took off all his clothing except his undies...
slowly the sauna was turning into a "fog" and from outside...zul look as if he was naked...
then we continue 2 play at de toilet...we on off de light and we could not see zul in there at all
then louis del pei ying and serene left...around 9pm there was onli lyk 10 ppl left??
we play big 2 agian...tis time with mr foo...had a great time playing with him cox he dun know how 2 play...=x...
aft that the security sae by 10pm de bbq must stop...so we pack up...then lyk nth 2 do liao so we decided 2 left...
me nel john and joanne went out to bus stop...talk talk somemore 4 awhile...then they decided 2 take a cab home...so I waited alone 4 my dad 2 fetch me home...aft that was home sweet home...
Ohya...I totally <33 my hair...its so nice ok!!thanks daddy and mummy!!

An unique and special boy entering adulthood who is learning to be humble, gracious & righteous in Christ Jesus; Also~, a love doc whom haven experience love himself; yet aiming to get married at 23; Love challenging what others dares not and not affected by one's status or riches; Lastly, a hardcore metrosexual whom loves to don himself in clothings...not forgetting his hair as well...=)



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Ok I`m Bored Bored Bored Bored!!
However...I dun want 2 get a job...I dun want 2 go out and have fun...
I dun know wat I want??Perhaps a life away from cities will be better??
I`ve got no one 2 talk to except my baby bro who awaits me 2 feed him and carry him...
and my computer games with my blog 2 express my feelings???ARGH!!
If u guys r constant readers...u probably will notice me posting everyday...
Sometimes even up 2 two posts or more per day...thats de reason!!
Some may say "No Freedom = No Life" but 4 me..."No Sch = No life"
Opps...that sounds kinda rare...but thats my point of view!!
In sch...lots of "activities","news" and "suprises" that will happened...
But now...going out or staying at home is de same...usual routine...expected things!!
Mayb u will say get a job will be best 4 me...
However...aft seeing so many ppl post about de difficulties and F**K up things...
I guess it better without one...
And those who dun know me well...I love unexpected...I love surprises!!

Ohya...and there is a "friend" of my who stays awake at 3am...
and best of all...he/she lyks my name alot...why??
cox he/she use my name and tag at other ppl blog 2 express his/her
tinking of wat he/her tinks I`m tinking...r u stupid or wat??
Dun try 2 be a smart alex and tink u r a saints trying 2 help me??
U onli see de surface of wat is happening and u pretend that u know everything...
Wahahax...all I can do is 2 laugh at ur ignorance...
So wat if I feelings 4 her...BIG F**K??Must u do such a thing??
All I can say is that u r unfortunate cox I`m feeling frustrated now...
I`m scolding u all I want in order 2 vent out my feelings...
Why wun u put ur own name??Dare 2 do dare not 2 admit??
Tell u something...I dun appreciate it at all...wateva of ur intention...
I dun give a damn...opps...I shldnt have sae d**n...but I`m F**K UP!!
U so free??Y dun u go back evss and help clean de toilets using a toothbrush...
Ok shall stop here...I do have some mercy in me...just dun repeat de same mistake again...
I tink I shld stop studying and find a job which bring excitement into me??
Lyk a stunt-man??Mountain climber??Diver??but not illegal jobs though...
Talk 2 me guys if u r free...b4 I go insane sooner or later...=x

2dae was a fun dae!!
Long time nv had a family outing le...
Went 2 escape with my family and had a great time 2gether...
I believe our relationship will be even stronger day aft day...
Hahax...treasure ur family man!!cox no matter wat...blood is thicker than water de!!
Shall stop here...and I miz my frens,I miz sch,I miz evss!!oops...nv expect myself 2 sae that...
Dizzy dizzy now...bye bye!!

Life is a learning journey...
there will surely be UPs and DOWNs in our life...
It is all up 2 us on how we see each and individual experience...
I`m getting more and more tired and restless by all tis learning...
Yes...I do get 2 learn alot through all tis that had happened in my life...
But I`m starting 2 lose de will and fighting spirit in me 2 continue on...
Day by day...my goals and targets that push me on had disappear...
Wat is there left 4 me now??...I do not know...but I`m not giving up...
I`m just continuing 2 push myself on...hoping more and more miracles will happened...
More and more goals and targets will appeared 2 increase my will capacity...
And also believing that all things that happened is in God`s purpose...
It may seems something negative...but it may be a blessing in disguise...
Keeping my mind firm is wat I`m praying...focusing on de positive instead of negative...
All that is left is to be patient and wait 4 God plan 2 be reveal...=)


Lots of incidents had happen 2 sovereign...
It may seems too sudden but I believe its inavoidable...
There is nth much 4 me 2 sae but just that its 4 de club interest...
Its de board decision and I clearly respect it...
Let bygone be bygone...lets not be bother by de past...
We can only move 4ward and work hand in hand with one another...


Hmm...I guess u guys probably hear ppl saying
dun bcox of a flower then give up de whole forest...its so stupid!!
Hmm...quite true...but I dun agree with it at all...
I have my own point of view when come to such situation
Hey tink!!wats de point of having a whole forest when u lose the precious little flower which u love and want
Its no use of giving me everything when I onli want HER onli...
SHE is de onli one which matter 2 me...its lyk feeding a vegetarian
with chicken,fish,beef and etc...
hahax...it may sound kinda silly...but thats wat I feel...


Believe me anot...but I believe there is always a exception...
I hate ppl of judging a person using "majority"...
an example will be lyk "all guys r untrustable" or "all guys r heartless"
its lyk hello?!?dun use that 2 infer on me!!
others mayb...but plz dun use it on me...
If everybody is de same...then human r lyk robot...
all r same...being produce with de same format...
and I believe in myself that I`m different...I`m unique...I`m special...
Just lyk my name...totally different from others...
Plz dun see me lyk others...open up ur EYES and spot de difference...
A extremely perfect person I`m not...but a excellent person I`m...
rmb...people mayb lyk that...but that does not apply on me...


Chalet from fridae to sundae...
First time I realise that being de organizer of a chalet is totally not easy...
All de while,whenever I go 4 a chalet I will complain tis complain that...
and in de end just have fun myself...=x
Tis time its my turn 2 feel how a organizer will feel...
Well prepare activities and food...yet complain and grumbling is all we heard...


dumb as it I may look...but deep down in me I`m not...
underestimate me all u want...my smile had fool u guys...
I may seems quiet and introvert around...not wanting 2 bother...
but behind I`m watching around acting as if nth had happend...
I`m sorrie 2 sae that u had pick with de wrong guy 2 play with...
cox its not me u r playing with but its my Lord God Jesus u r dealing with...


Argh!!My head is in pain...
Crosses during trng lead 2 using de wrong part of my head 2 head...
My head is in pain...no swell...fortunately??I`m not sure...
But wat I know is that it realli hurts alot!!
Tis shall be my last post till Sunday??
Having chalet @ costa sand resort(pasir ris) from 2morrow till sundae...
Gonna have fun I hope...intending not 2 slp...relaxation is wat I want...


Old injuries keep on healing and resurfacing...
No matter how gd u r...it can be a huge burden and pain 4 us...
Praying hard daily 4 it 2 heal as I do not want it 2 stop my footballing career...
Huge prospects I am and I believe I can go far if I keep myself humble and eager 2 learn...
Focusing on football is my main goal...all things aside 4 now...
With God nth is impossible is still my stand...I believe in unseen...
and I trust in God that Sovereign and my life will reach great height...


Sleepless nite with deep thinking has let me come 2 a conclusion...
Life has 2 go on...and most importantly...I have a choice in everything...
Whether 2 choose to be happie or sad...to continue or quit...its all up 2 me...
I have also realise that all that is happening is a learning experience 4 me...
Instead of asking God y such things happen on me??...I shld have have ask something instead...
God wat do u want me 2 learn from it??...
hahax...And trust me or shld I sae trust de Bible...
God do not test us beyond our limit...So if such things will 2 happened...
God knows that I`m able 2 control and overcome it...and I`m glad 2 say I did...
Although its kind of hurting...and I was lyk WTH...such a joke in my life lyk that...
But I`m still glad that he send true frens 2 come encourage and help me along de ways...
I do not deny that I`m kinda angry,disappointed,jealous when I heard about de things u told me...
Especially when there is someonelse...However...in tis kind of things...
there is no right or wrong...so I realli can`t sae much...
I have decided 2 commit and let God lead me in everythings...
I can`t promise anything at all now...but I will just let nature occurs on it own...
If its God will 4 us 2 be 2gether then so be it...if its not then so be it too...
I will not force myself 2 4get u or purposely go and look 4 another gurl or wateva...
I`m leaving everything in God`s hand now...
cox he let me realise that I can`t do things de way I want at all...
I have 2 commit everything 2 him...=)
All that I ever ask from U is 2 commit and let God decide 4 u who is de right person 4 u...
and do not let others influence ur decision and lastly...
Plz do not be 2 rash in ur decision...thats all I wants...=)


day after day time pass away
and i just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows i hide it inside i keep on searching but i can't find
the courage is to show to letting you know i've never felt so much love before
and once again i'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be
holding you close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me
oh yeah how will i know if i let you go
night after night i hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame
we're worlds apart i'm to shy to ask i'm to proud to lose but sooner or later i've gotta choose
and once again i'm thinkin' about taking the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me
will i ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah how will i know
if i let you go if i let you go oh baby oooh once again
i'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out
but if i let you go i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me
close to me will i ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah
how will i know if i let you go but if i let you go i will never know oh baby
will i ever seeyou smiling back at me oh yeah how will i know
how will i know
if i let you go


Hmm...So all tis while it has always been me myself...
Haha...but its ok...instead of feeling sad...I`m somehow feeling "lighten"
As in finally I`m letting something which I had always hold on too 4 4yrs??
phew...hahax...of course I`m abit sad...Hello?!?!I`m still human rite??
But I`m not that sad 2 de extent of crying 4 nites and days...
So time 2 move on perhaps??and love cannot be force...
I dun blame u at all and I hope 2 wish u all de best in ur life...=)
and most important get urself a better guy then me ok!!..
oresle I will be lyk ##@@^#$!$...hahax...
Ohya and must be a christian too wow!!...
And plz pray hard 4 me 2 get a better gurl then u wow!!...
So I hereby declare myself single again...hahax...I always was wat!!dots...
smile always Manton!!

@3U2$i_+@$
I`m a stupid boi boi...It takes me so long 2 realise it...
Everytime I keep on pushing de blame around...to u,to others,to de surrounding...
But I nv blame myself...I keep on saeing that u r de one who do not want 2 be with me...
However,I nv ask u of ur opinion...I nv ask wat`s de problem u r facing with...
I onli care about myself,how I feel,how I want it 2 be,but I nv care about how u feel...
I din not care if u r sad,disappointed,angry,or down...I keep on pressing u 2 be with me
just 4 my own sake...I believe u love me and I love u too...however...I din show any concern to u at all...
I din realise at all that u r a girl...and I`m a boy...I shld have been de one who have gave u de sense of security,
go through thick and thins with u,care and concern about u and most importantly make de initial move...
I believe there have been lots of hurts and doubts in ur mind...
I`m realli realli sorrie that I had nv been there 4 u...I nv show any concern 4 u at all...
All that I ever did was 2 avoid u,pretend not 2 see u and hurt u...
I`m realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli sorrie...
I was crazy to had nv see ur love and care 4 me...I onli care about myself...
Whether we can be 2gether anot...is another question...
But no matter wat ur decision is...I must sincerely apologize 2 u...
However,I still realli hope 2 be with u...But I will leave de decision 2 u...
As I din take my chance in de past...
All I just want 2 sae is that 4 de past 4 years...My love 4 u is from de bottom of my heart...
I LOVE U...

Fitter and Fitter daily I become...
De after effect of trng is slowing disappearing...De pain I once often fear is slowly gone...
90mins r turning easy 4 me...i`m slowly running more often than usual...its a gd sign...
Yesterdae game totally sucks...was disappointed but I still can take it on my chin...
5-2 de final score line...its disappointing but another addititon 2 my experience list...
Improvement is always wat I aim every single match...and I`m happie I din disappoint myself...


Ytrdae...surprise 2 be still in contact with my ex classmate yaoting...
din expect her 2 manage 2 find my contacts...had a gd and happie chat with her...
especially when I`m bullying her...wahahax...sorrie dumbdumb yaoting...
who ask u call me irritating pest manton when u r more irritating...wahahax...


Yawnz...ok ytrdae was prom nite and frankly speaking...
I din not wanted 2 go...I also dun know y...but it just seems uninteresting and pointless...
Actually wanted 2 meet louis,del,nel at city hall...but in de end...we ended up in de same train...
So...it save us de waiting time...reach there quite early around 6.35pm...
But 2 our surprise...there were many already there...decided 2 went in and sit...
and frankly...we choose de wrong table lah...it was de last one far right 2 de end...
ended up sitting with pei ying,chevalyn,sock ping,yi xin and lu huan...
then del and nel change 2 jon`s table...but me and louis were ps 2 leave de gurls alone...
So we waited some time b4 changing...
Frankly speaking...if I know wat kind of event was presented 2 us...
I will not have even bother 2 turn up...WHY?!?
firstly,de food suck!!...secondly...I dun have de mood...and lastly...there were so many
and I realli mean many incidents which makes my blood boil!!...
But I cum liao...so bo bian...just sit there loh...let de time pass...and most importantly...
try 2 be adrift from others...=x
then there were many awards and lucky draw given out...some part were funny...
but I just can`t laugh it out...also dun know y...
then it was blah blah blah blah and so on...
ppl then decided 2 ignored de host and started moving around taking photos...
I was lyk feeling WTF...and hoping ppl will not approach me 2 take photos(seriously)...
so I just pretend pretend...sit there...dun move about...was talking 2 rizwan...
trying not 2 attract any ppl...but still...ppl come asking me 2 take photo...
so no choice loh...everything was meaningless and unfascinating until about de end??
I will nv imagine that 2 happened(mayb onli in my dream) and seriously I was stunned,
shock,surprise,u name it all...
we were walking back 2 our table and we bypass HER walking in de opp direction...
de moment I saw her from afar...I was already not myself...dun know how 2 react...
so I just walk loh...thought SHE will also pretend nv see me(lyk wat we always do in sch lah)...
So I just look 2wards my left and hope SHE looks 2wards HER right(not I wan de,but its de way we avoid each other)...and surprising...instead of that happening...
SHE make de move 2 ask whether want 2 take photo with HER anot?!?!
Frankly speaking...at that moment...I was touch and sad at de moment...WHY?!?!
I din expect that 2 happened...I also thought SHE will nv make de first move...
sad bcox I feel quite useless loh...lyk WTF MANTON!!...u r de guy not HER!!...
u tis boi shld feel realli grateful that such a thing happened 2 u...
seriously...at that moment...My tears nearly flow out(heng ah)...
I believe it was one of de best moment in my life...how I wish time will have pause at that moment...
But still I`m happie too have at least that moment...better than none...
and it will always be in my memories...praying hard that it wun be my last...
aft that was dance all de way...was sian 2 be fact!!...
I dun lyk such things at all...so I just sit down loh...with sp,jess they all...
Ohya...thankfully...jess`s de papa fetch me home on de way too...and I realli save alot on taxi fare...thks alot Jess!!

Hmm...every single dae,we have a choice 2 choose whether 2 be sad or happy...
However,certain daes,our mood r being affected by wat we see,feel,hear or even smell...
As a result,de whole dae is being spoilt...worse of all is when its been cause by de 1 u love...
But wat we can do is 2 tell ourselves we have a choice 2 choose wat kind of dae we want...
Although de hurt and pain will still be there...there will always be a way 2 overcome it...


I did wat I shld do...and frankly speaking...I`m disappointed...It had always been hard 4 me 2 pick up my courage due 2 de fear of rejection...I may seems 2 be ok...but deep down inside me...the hurt and fear has just gone deeper...I dun know y but I just feel there is always something or some reasons that is stopping us...I dun know whether I realli understand or accept de reasons u give...but I just feel they r excuses from u 2 get away from me...everytime when my hopes r high...it always ended up back 2 zero again...the urge within my heart r slowly disappearing...and all that r left r broken pieces of my heart with my fallen tears on it...all that I ever wanted was...you

Siao Liao Lah Siao Liao Lah...
Tis 2 daes will most probably be de toughest dae of my time...
Lots of words r hitting me rite through my heart...all of them supporting de same stand...
I dun know much and I hope not 2 care much...however...de urge pulling me is just 2 great...
I just have a feeling that if I dun move within tis 2 daes...it will be GAME OVER...
The Game will then be defeated...NONONONONO!!!
I dun lyk it but I just can`t seems 2 stop it from happening...
Motivation from my frens r pushing me till de end of de race...
However it still up 2 me 2 decided my future...so wat will it be??...
I realli dun know now...

Tired is de onli word 2 describe me...
Training has been superb tough tis wk as we r trying 2 gain back our fitness...
However a gd sign is that our team is growing rapidly...from 5-6 in de past...
till de current crop of 25 members in our team...best of all is that our players r just brillant...
Not onli our 1st team is strong...but our second team is strong too...
Best of all is that our standard of de 1st team is just too strong and hot 4 others 2 handle...
Watch us Sovereign FC...Our team is just starting 2 heat up as one of de best in town...


Finally football season 2 kick off...
2dae trng was veri shiok...cox its realli tough man!!
4 de first time...we train till tis standard...furthermore its been a long time since I play
So its was quite a tough thing 2 regain my form...with de field being in a bad condition
adding 2 my difficulties...

Unfortunately...Vicky did a mis-tackle on me unintentionly...
coxing me 2 injure my ankle with bruises and swell...however as usual...
I`m Manton Chan...and I wun give up so easily...a small setback will onli make me return
stronger and better...

prom nite will be tis fridae...so it will be de last time we see each other ppl!!


hmm...O lvl is finally over...
I always thought I will feel happy
BUT somehow I dun...ya...I maybe showing my craziness aft O lvl
However...I dun realli know why either...I`m starting 2 miz sch...
My frens...de teachers...the sch...etc etc...I dun know y either...
Mayb bcox its lyk another part of my life coming 2 end...
However...there r some unfinish business left...
I dun want 2 just leave it there and wash my hands...
Its so inresponsible...I feel I have 2 at least have an ans...
In order not 2 have another regret added into my life...


yesterdae went mrs lynette chua condo 2 have bbq...
it was organize 4 408 and 409...the response was so great
no. of ppl register was about 60ppl in total...mostly from 409...
however less than half turn up??yup...about there...
we all can tell mrs chua was feeling abit disappointed...
worst of all...there were 4 table there and we all felt racism in practice...
1 table contain me,delvyn,louis.jonathan,augustine,nelson,peiying,serene and joanne
while the 3 table were fill up by malays...we actually thought that we could have join tables
chit chat together...talk about the activites that happen during our time together...
however they just seem so unfriendly...so we just stick 2 our own grp...
play "big 2" at the beginning...then they begin 2 play 21 dian...with money involve
so of course I`m not involve...watch them play...then it was time 2 eat...all of us din eat much
especially me and louis...we began 2 talk cock...and then we came 2 one topic on nelson`s
"favourite" fren=>monkey...we share with them y we did not continue 2 befrens...
all de things that make us du lan and all de things we dun lyk about him...
at first joanne and serene was still feeling abit pity 4 him...
however aft hearing all those things...they all began 2 feel so agitated...hahax...esp joanne...
then we manage 2 link till de incidentt where serene spit milo on louis face during sec 3...
Next we decided 2 post at de playground and take photos...had lot of funs there
aft that went 2 play at the baby pool...enjoy ourselves alot...then me nelson zul and john<> decide 2 swim awhile...went down into de pool with my jeans...then less than 10 mins we came back up
nelson was constantly sneezing...then we went into the suana??...had a great laugh there
zul went into the suana and he took off all his clothing except his undies...
slowly the sauna was turning into a "fog" and from outside...zul look as if he was naked...
then we continue 2 play at de toilet...we on off de light and we could not see zul in there at all
then louis del pei ying and serene left...around 9pm there was onli lyk 10 ppl left??
we play big 2 agian...tis time with mr foo...had a great time playing with him cox he dun know how 2 play...=x...
aft that the security sae by 10pm de bbq must stop...so we pack up...then lyk nth 2 do liao so we decided 2 left...
me nel john and joanne went out to bus stop...talk talk somemore 4 awhile...then they decided 2 take a cab home...so I waited alone 4 my dad 2 fetch me home...aft that was home sweet home...
Ohya...I totally <33 my hair...its so nice ok!!thanks daddy and mummy!!