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Wednesday, 30 January 2008 ● 16:51
Haiiz...I realise smt..I`m always acting tough on de outside but I`m actually weak on de inside...
I seems 2 be faithful,super strong,fearless and even have de nv sae die attiude by many...
But I realise I`m not that wonderful...Although many will feel I am special and gifted...
I guess I`m still human aft all...
I`m always trying 2 be a listening ear 2 my frens` grieve and sadness...
Help them 2 live a better life...help them 2 solve their problem...
And always helping them 2 tink positively...
But When I`m down...I find that nobody is there 4 me...
Nobody is there 2 listen 2 my complains and grieve...
Nobody is there 2 share my burden and pain...
Nobody is there 2 help me get back 2 my feet...
Mayb ppl r tinking that I can settle my problems on my own...
Or mayb they r tinking that wat problems will I have~
I dun know wat`s on their mind...
But I can onli sae humans r selfish...
In order 2 obtain wat`s best 4 themselves...
They will rather push u aside and sacrifice u...
Yes...Thats human...heartless and selfish...
Mayb I`m not human aft all...
I can`t bear to see others in pain while I`m enjoying myself...
I can`t bear 2 hack care while ppl r sweating profusely...
I can`t bear 2 leave ppl crying there while I pretend not 2 see anything...
Tis road is just getting harder and harder 2 walk...
But I believe Jesus shall see me through...
Every tears I shed...Shall not go to waste...
I just wan 2 move on with life and 4get all that has ever happened...
No point arguing Who`s right or Who`s wrong...
I just feel that sometimes wat we feel is best 4 ourselves may not be de best 4 ourselves in God`s eyes...
Haiiz...