we come,we go
Wednesday, 30 April 2008 ● 20:10
Kinda feeling moodless and sad today...All I can sae is that I never expect such things to happened suddenly...
Watch soccer early in the morning and yup was superb high and happy that man u qualify for finals...
Din wan to go to sch...but I still did...Dun know y also??
Was kinda engage and having fun since the start talking with my grp members...
Until I suddenly receive an sms from my dad saying my cous just past away...
I was totally moodless already since then...
I was kinda shock and not bother about other things already...
All I was tinking about is rushing down to hospital to check out more...
And yup...thats wat I did...
Went to pick up my family as well along the way and headed there together...
Walking along the corridor...
Loud and sad crys will already heard...
I expected that that was my auntie...
And true enough my auntie was crying so terribly...
Kinda of break down already...
And my uncle told us that my cous is inside...
Kinda surprise as it is the first time I saw a dead body being left in a room lyk that...
When I saw my cous lieing there...
I dun know wat to do and react...
My mind just went blank...
Kinda lost in terms of how to react...
My mum cried upon seeing him...
He kinda die quite unwilling and painfully I tink...
As his eyes were kinda 3/4 close...
And his mouth will slightly open...
Presume he was trying to grasp for air...
His body was kinda drain without blood left...
I was feeling kinda emo however peaceful at the same time...
I couldn`t cry at all...
Perhaps my tears are all dry up and perhaps I din see the moment he die...
One by one relatives came...
And lots of them cry and broke down terribly...
Perhaps they couldn`t accept the fact and truth...
F.Y.I
For those whom know about my blood problem(thallesemia)
This cous of mine that past away is the one that has major...
He is the one that I did mention to some b4...
He had to receive blood transfusion regularly...
Just lyk how a vehicle require petrol to operate...
He gone through a veri strainess life...
Constantly fighting against the sickness...
And to me...he had gone through a great fight...
He suffer huge amount of pain and suffering...
Require injection daily to keep on going...
And I`m proud to have a cous lyk him...
Cox he nv ever complain and mention about giving up...
Thanks be to God however...
As my cous case is already a veri miraculous one...
people with the same sickness will expected not to live beyond the age of 20...
those who manage to live till about 20 is consider a miracle already...
And my cous manage to live to the age of 25...
Will be busy de whole dae 2morrow helping out at his funeral...
Will be back in sch on fridae...
Hopefully able to attend sports camp still bah...
Personal:
Thank God that I onli has 25%(minor)
Orelse...it would be me lieing there in a few yrs time perhaps...
From 2dae...I realise how precious life is...
How fragile life is...
PPL...do appreciate and treasure your close one...
For those who love someone...
Plz dun wait any longer to tell them...
Cox chances come and go...
U will nv know wat might happened nxt...
Plz dun have the mindset of "wait lah,nvm de lah"
Dun regret when you dun even have the chance anymore to sae those 3 precious words to them anymore...
From the bottom of my heart...
I love you(to all)